Friday, March 11, 2011

Contemplating pregnancy and the universe...

We are at 6 months and moving right along.  I am finally getting big enough that people feel comfortable asking if I'm pregnant.  Plus, I'm feeling really good right now.  Some nights when Cody and I are just hanging out on the couch, I almost forget that I'm pregnant.  Then of course Harper decides to remind me and kicks me in the gut...but I'm sure she does it out of love.

So I haven't really been reading any books or researching any information about pregnancy.  I am kind of relying on all the stuff my sister Kristen told me while she was pregnant.  She's pretty smart and I think spent tons of time reading.  But there are some of the surprising things I have discovered from pregnancy.

     1. Rolling over in bed is starting to become VERY difficult.
     2. I get physically out of breath just walking up one flight of stairs.
     3. I am totally in love with milk and eggs.  It's weird eating so much breakfast all the time.
     4. I never know what is coming next and that is annoying.  All anyone ever says is "Everyone's different, so who knows?"   Well I am a control freak and I'd like to know thank you very much.
     5. Being pregnant does have its' perks. People are so helpful.  They carry stuff for you, let you through   the line first, allow you to eat first, always ask how you are.  I love this part!

Other than that, Cody and I have been reading Job this week.  The other day I asked Cody how he thinks he would react if he was Job.  If we lost everything or if something happened to Harper or me.  Would God still be his God or would he be angry and turn away?  To be honest, I wasn't sure what my answer was.  I wanted to be able to say that I would trust God completely and would not be angry.  But I wasn't sure.  Then, we started reading about what God says when He starts talking back to Job.  God questions Job about why he thinks he has any say.

Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation? 

Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know! 
   Who stretched a measuring line across it? 
On what were its footings set, 
   or who laid its cornerstone— 
While the morning stars sang together 
   and all the angels shouted for joy?

Have you ever given orders to the morning,
or shown the dawn its place?
Tell me, if you understand.
Have you comprehended the vast expanses of the earth? 
   Tell me, if you know all this.
Job 38

Who is Job really?  Not anyone special, just a man.  Did Job hang the moon?  raise the sun?  create the heavens?  tell the rain when to fall?  No.  It's God.  It's always God.  This is God's world.  We are His creation.  He is in charge.  It's funny when I forget and remember that.  We aren't here on Earth to grow up, get a job, have a family, live life and only worry about ourselves.  We are here for God's purpose, God's glory.  We are here to love Him and worship Him, to adore Him.  If we have a great life too, I think that's just a bonus.   

Have you ever truly comprehended how amazing God is?  Think of all the big things He has done.  He created everything-Earth, Sun, Moon, Oceans, Continents, Planets, etc.  But He also created even the tiniest details.  He placed all the stars in the sky to allow us to enjoy their beauty and He knows each by name. He is the God of all.  And He is even more beautiful than we know!

So with that said, I've realized that no matter what-God is bigger than my problems.  No matter what happens to me, I will trust Him.  Even if my life turns out like Job's, I will love my God for all eternity.  
And thankfully, Cody's response was the same.  So I know I'll have someone to lean on...

Your love it beckons deeply, 

By grace now I will come 
And take this life, take your life.

Sin has lost it's power,
death has lost it's sting.
From the grave you've risen

Into marvelous light I'm running,
Out of darkness, out of shame.
By the cross You are the truth,
You are the life, You are the way! 

a call to come and die.

1 comment:

  1. For whatever reason I reread this post today. I so love your heart for little Harper and your family and how you've laid it out in this post. I am so proud of you and know you are going to be an amazing mother! Ok, I have to stop or I'm going to start crying at my desk...

    Love you!