Monday, December 27, 2010

Moving right along!

We are now 14 weeks pregnant!  Finally made it to my 2nd trimester.  The first one was pretty tough.  I felt pretty horrible, pretty much all day.  I am sure that my family got tired of me, but it was rough.  Not feeling good all day makes for a long 8 weeks!  My husband is the one who was good to me through all of it.  I even yelled at him one night because I had fallen asleep on the couch and he woke me up to send me to bed.  Yes, I apologized later!
We had a sonogram about a week ago and we got to see our beautiful baby.  She actually looks like a real baby now!  You can see just about all the features and we got to see the legs kicking like crazy.  That moment was amazing.  I can't physically see, feel, or hold my baby yet...  But I got to see her on that screen and she became so real.  So so excited!
I got a few baby things for Christmas and am very excited.  We hadn't bought anything, waiting to find out if it's a boy or a girl.  But we got a Texas A&M onesie and bib.  It now hangs on the babies door as a reminder of what is coming.  So so excited!
God has been big lately.  He has kept my husband and I relying on each other for love and support.  And he has kept us loving each other at our most unlovable moments.  But lately, as I've been reading through Joshua, I see how truly big God is.  He goes before us to pave the way.  He was there with me while I was sick, I just may not have noticed.  He is there with me every time I get scared or nervous.  And He is with our baby, making her big and strong and healthy.  Sometimes it's easy to forget just how great our God really is.
I was a little emotional this Christmas season as I started thinking about what God did.  He sent his son, His child, His flesh and blood, to Earth to save us, to save me.  Having the baby to think about now makes me really appreciate the fullness of that sacrifice.  What a grand gesture of love!  How He loves us!
Heres the the 2nd trimester being happy and good.  Here's to a wonderful baby in 2011.  And here's to a God that is bigger than life and greater than anything imaginable.
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Monday, November 22, 2010

My first blog!

So, I'm not sure how this will turn out, but here goes!  I am not a great writer and my life isn't all that amazing.  But my life is blessed and I am hoping my story has significance in this world.
I am married to an amazing man.  He is wonderful, sweet, and loves me even though I'm a bit crazy.
And we are expecting our first child.  This news makes me want to cry.

I never imagined how I would already love my baby so much.  I can already picture her life (no I don't know it's a girl, but I hope!).  I want her to be happy, loved, and to know Christ.  I want so badly to be a good mom.  To continue being a good wife.  To teach my children to follow God throughout their lives.  To have an impact on someone or something.

Some have worried that I am not excited about being pregnant and having a child.  That couldn't be farther from the truth.  I think I'm just worried.  I've wanted this for so long, I'm nervous that I won't actually get it.  I have been waiting to get pregnant for quite some time.  Thankfully, God is greater than me, and the time has been good.  My husband and I have had some extra time to enjoy marriage.  And we've both been able to watch my sister and brother in law have a baby.  That was definitely helpful.  But this is real.  This is life changing.

My prayer is that God would continue to be bigger than me.  That He would continue walking beside me and helping our baby grow big and strong.  And that I would remember that He is my treasure.  He is my prize.