I am 20 weeks today, which means halfway...wahoo! Things have been going pretty well. I'm still small enough that I can hide my belly. My students at school still don't know, which is funny. Funny because they all thought I was pregnant back in August (rude) when I wasn't, and now have no clue.
We had a dr's appointment 2 weeks ago, all excited to find out the gender, and they wanted to wait 2 more weeks. Boo. So we were supposed to go yesterday, but Snowpalooza 2011 cancelled our appointment. Double Boo. I'd be upset except that I haven't had to work in four days-which is a pretty nice little vacation. Sadly, since we don't know the gender, there isn't much we can do. So I look up baby rooms, baby bedding, and just hang out.
Last night we went over to my parents house in Argyle to hang out with the family (Carleigh enticed me with homemade cookies!). We looked at baby bedding (I sadly noticed I don't have any boy rooms-uh oh) and looked up more baby names. A few were pretty funny-Enoch, Obadiah, and Lazarus. But even though we have a few ideas for boy names, we have always just loved 1 for a girl. Hopefully our next post will tell you the gender and name...we'll see!
Last night was also the point where a few things changed for me. On the way over there, I felt these little movements inside my belly. At first I thought they were like little gas bubbles that had popped right near my belly button. Then I realized that gas bubbles don't pop near your belly button, so it must have been a BABY KICK. Wow. Just realizing what it was changed my whole perspective. She's in there, really and truly. And she's getting big enough to kick me. I suddenly felt complete and utter awe and love for this little person inside me. And complete and utter awe for the God who created this baby. What an amazing feeling.
Psalm 139 says: You formed my innermost parts; You knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. In Your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there were none of them.
What a huge promise! That God knows and loves and has special plans for our baby, and has had them even before I thought about them. To know He loves our baby even more than I.
I would do anything for my baby. And I would do anything for my God. And I know He would do anything for me because He already did. He chose to send His only Son, His perfect Son, to save the world. I only hope and pray that my child will also know and love God as well.
What an amazing God!